Searching for the perfect match?

I'm 20. Getting the borderline of loveless. Does it mean there's no perfect match for me?

I was thinking, I want to have a right girlfriend at the right time in the right place. That was 4 years ago. That 4-year duration of searching for the right girl was so difficult, I guess one of the toughest. If not, the hardest.

During that 4-year timeline, I was able to mingle with different girls. One there, she was a call center agent. She was active in night time. But how about day time? Always sleeping. I remember that I invited her to have movie date, but I guess when I called her, she was sleeping. 2 in the afternoon. Scourging hot outside. 32 degrees. But no one is answering the call. The worst thing she did was when I came to her office in IT Park and bought some snacks for her. It was 12 midnight. Mosquitoes bit me. Waiting for her break for like 3 hours. I kept on calling her phone, but sad to say she left her phone in the locker while she was having her work. After 3 hours, I left her food with a letter on it saying, "This would be the last. Thanks for loving and waiting me." I left the place at 4 in the morning. Worth waiting.

After few days, I didn't receive any calls from her, even a single text message. But I was expecting for that thing to come. I'm that kind of person that can easily forget those trouble times. And yes, for that short span of time, I forgot her.

After a month, I met this pretty awesome girl in school in her sophomore years. That was my first time I saw this pretty creature. I'm kinda good in stalking people, so I was able to know her background. She's studying Education major in Biology. Been to a lot of beauty pageants in their hometown, and also taking her courage to join major beauty pageants in the city. Yeah, I know, she's a good looking person. She was my inspiration for 3 months. Because of my strong connections with her closest friends, I was able to talk to her, heart to heart. Exchanging quotes and jokes over text messages, and even talking on phone for 3 hours per night.

We consider our relationship as "close friends". But because of our sudden closeness to each other, there are times that something is rumbling over my mind. I was getting paranoid when she joined in a modeling group. No texts, calls or even communication over Facebook. Her timeline is all about this modeling group. And there was a rumor that she was currently dating this tall and good looking guy from the group. Oh well, I guess that it girl is not for me.

Until now, I don't have any news from her. Well I guess she found her knight and shining armor. How sad she didn't pick me to be part of her love story.

While I'm desperate to find the perfect match of my love story, there is this simple girl, on her pony-tailed hair, with interesting mole in her upper lips. We're about of the same age, 20. She's funny, funny to be with. One talk and everyone will laugh that there's no tomorrow. But for her, it is a normal talk. She keeps on complaining that we made her a laughing stuff.

I met her in my working place. She came all the way from the mountains with copper and gold beneath. Her hometown seems to be an interesting place to live. There are lots of gold and minerals, just like her face. Shining like a diamond. I asked her frankly, "Why you're so beautiful?", then she answered, "because I am.", then everyone in the office laughed out loud because of the way she delivered the message. She is so funny, really. All-in-one, full package. It's like, I want to bring her home like a stuffed toy.

Now, I'm still searching for the right girl. I guess the mole girl will complete the criteria. But the question is, is she the right one? Will God continue to write my love story? Or someone else is waiting for my presence? Then the who?

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments

Valentine's Note

Valentines anywhere, valentines everywhere. Kahit sa FB valentines topic nila. Fave flower for valentines 'eh red roses, kung may kaya 'eh pink roses, parang 'yung sa patay na bulaklak with stand. LOL. Fave movie to watch on valentines 'eh ang walang kamatayang A Crazy Little Thing Called Love. A Thai movie about this ugly duckling turned into a beautiful princess just to get the attention of this hearthrob in school but after the long run, 'eh inlove din pala 'tong lalaking 'to sa bida. Parang unbelievable, unpredictable ang story with twists and turns. Fave resto na rin ata during valentines ang mga resto na nag-ooffer ng eat-all-you-can with serenade, banda at kaliwa't kanang freebies. Meron naman ding discounts sa mga hotels but I don't really get the point of having this discount rates 'eh bata pa ako, ba't ko gusto malaman kung bakit. Haha. Basta ako, I want to skip that Feb 14 date kasi wala akong ka date.

Kung gusto niyo ng tips galing sa akin, ok lang. Just read this post.

Tip from our Professor: Actually, I was not expecting that she will give this tip for us, sa mga may kadate. Sabi niya, H'wag mong dalhin ang iyong ka-date sa Fast Food. Hindi naman kayo nagmamadaling kumain. Dapat sa fine dining restaurant. Para mahaba-haba ang inyong usapan. Hindi pagkain ang habol niyo sa date, kundi ang mahabang oras ng inyong pagsasama. Sabi pa nga niya,

"Love flies out of the window when your stomach is empty."

Second tip. From Rabsky (ako), thou shall not bring her to a burger stand. That's rude. Mas lalong mabadtrip ang babae sa'yo. At lalong never mo siyang papagastusin. Treat her. :)

Third tip. Take her to the movie house, pero dapat love story ang panonoorin niyo para may sense, not an action movie or horror. Where's the sense of celebrating valentines?

Fouth tip. H'wag umastang parang mag-asawa kayo during date. Hindi pa nga kayo kasal. Take it simple and surely. Treat your girl like a princess not a wife. :)

Fifth. Kung makipagdate ka na man dahil sa pustahan ng kabarkada mo, then don't do it. That's rude. Karamihan sa mga dates ganyan ang cases. Hindi ba kayo naawa sa babae? Mokong.

Sixth. Bring camera to capture every moments. Then thou shall not post it on social networking sites. Just keep it to yourself. Mas dadami ang magseselos niyan kung ipo-post niyo sa internet. At baka gagawa pa yan sila ng gossip tungkol sa date niyo.

Seventh. Don't dare to post your location while dating. Baka susundan ka ng isa mo pang stalker at sirain ang date niyo. Di ba ang pangit?

Eight. Kung may balak man lang kayo makipagdate, magpagwapo naman kayo for good sake. Ayaw nilang mangamoy palengke ka. Special day 'yan, ano ba!

Ninth. Talking about presents. Wala namang kamatayang chocolates and flowers ang ipamimigay mo. Jusko, find another or better present for her. Something that she can relates on it. Malay niyo, ayaw niya ng chocolates or flowers.

Tenth. Kung may balak kayong magharana, then be sure na singer kayo o maganda ang boses niyo. Kasi pagtatawanan ka lang ng kadate mo kapag mas pangit pa sa kabayo ang boses mo! :)

Yan lang muna ang maibibigay kong tips. Kahit isa dito hindi ko pa natry. Haha. Kung meron man kayong idagdag, just leave a comment. Basta enjoy your Valentines. :)

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments , Happy Moments

I Met The Grim Reaper!

So weird to share this experience regarding the presence of so-called "kamatayan" or the Grim Reaper. Gumising kaagad ako and never go back to sleep baka matuluyan pa ako.

The thing happened when I dreamt about my cousin's finally bearing a child. Suddenly, the environment changed, it turned to black and (I think I'm half awaken) I saw, just in front of me, the Grim Reaper, wearing this black cloak but the weird thing, I can't see his face. Hindi ko siya kaagad tinignan at ang ginawa ko ay isang malaking bangungot ang nangyari.

After a minute, hindi pa rin ako makagising, and still he's looking at me (perhaps) and luckily, I escaped from his deep dark force inside my dream. I woke up thinking what was his purpose bakit nagpakita siya. I'm still curious. And why I can't see his face. Then I checked the time, 3:59am. I read this article online related to dark forces, stated "..if you can see the image of death (kamatayan) in your dreams around 3am, which is the devil hour, then perhaps he is up to something.." Little bit scared on my part. Due to this condition, I consulted Google and Wikipedia regarding the personification of death in my dream. Here are the results:

"To see the grim reaper in your dream, signifies the negative, rejected aspects of your personality. It represents aspects of yourself that you have repressed. Alternatively, it symbolizes death. The dream may parallel an end to some situation, habit, or relationship in your waking life." *(http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/characters.htm)

In conclusion, the only thing that I forgot during my nightmare was to call God for help. I don't know why I forgot Him to call. Perhaps that grim reaper controlled my mind. But still, I felt so guilty on why I didn't call Him. Second, think positive. Literally, I was thinking seeing myself inside the coffin due to my subconscious mind. After the nightmare, I woke up, with a small lurking disappointment, and full of thoughts and wonder. But still, I should learn to think positive. And lastly, pray always before and after sleeping. That is my weakness. I forgot to have communication with God before and after sleeping. and now I took it as a lesson-learned situation.

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments

Naisip kita, Sir Orman!

Blogging is my atmosphere. I miss blogging so much. Mahirap talaga basta estudyanteng blogger ka. You need time, effort and mostly, patience if you’ll make a blog article.

May nakilala akong tao, he’s a full-time blogger and I don’t know what he has right now, basta I can define him as cuddly, happy-go-lucky type, friendly, loving and a great friend to everybody. Hindi ko lang alam kung bakit everyday nalang siya nagboblog. Minsan nakakatamad ang ganyan, right? Well, this man certainly loves to write and publish his experiences. It’s just like his own online diary that everyone could read and state their comments. And because of that, mas lalong sumikat itong taong ito, for being one of the most visited personal blogs in the world wide web. Nakakawindang.

Palaka, hindi ko rin alam kung bakit palaka ang kanyang napili sa kadami-daming pwedeng magustuhan, bakit palaka? I forgot to ask him, “Why frogs? What’s with them na bakit gustung-gusto mo sila?”. Mahihiya naman ako kung tatanungin ko siya nang ganun. I personally met this guy when I joined the Plurk Grand Eyeball, I think, last 2009 at Genee Resto, Oval Plaza. I was with Chariz Mundo, co-blogger. I met some of my friends in Plurk as well as in Facebook. Mga bloggers din pala sila. I had the opportunity to meet him, and also his brother, the author of famous GenSantos.Com. I think the most memorable one para sa kanya is when they gave him a wood-carve frog, medyo malaki in size, and it was so cute. He was emotional that time. He thanked everyone for that surprise gift.

I actively joined their group, the SOCSKSARGEN Bloggers, composed of different members in different places in Region 12. I blog often, I plurked a lot and I changed my status in Facebook everyday. Ganyan ang buhay ko when I joined them. Minsan, mahihiya ka ‘pang mag-usap with bloggermates and to the big bosses but this man told us na “don’t be shy”, after ‘nun wala na kaming hiya. Haha. But literally nandoon pa ‘yung feeling na nahihiya pa kami, especially ako, towards other bloggers.

Parati ko rin siyang makasama sa mga events, one of them was the SOCSKSARGEN SUMMER SAFARI last May. The night before the event, ‘dun kami natulog sa kanyang mahiwagang kwarto, with Alexis and Xyrilloid. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ‘dun ako napadpad. Alexis and Xyril explained to me na ‘dun daw sila matutulog, in preparation for the summer safari. Ako na ngenga, hindi ako nakapaghanda man lang ng maisusuot. But well, I came up with my final decision na magse-sleep over sa kanila. ‘Dun ko narealize na habang sa pagtulog niya, parang may malaking barko na papaalis ng pantalan. Sobrang lakas. If you know what I mean. Hahaha. Peace. But kidding aside, through sleeping, ‘dun siya kumukuha ng lakas in order for him to continue his blogging activity. Akala ko wala siyang pahinga. Sa kanyang mga blog posts recently, lahat broken hearted ang topic, his journeys and experiences, etc. (End of Thinking Capacity)

He’s really a fat guy. Kaya nga cuddly, parang cuddly bear. Sabi pa ng iba, sarap niyang yakapin. Well, hindi ko pa naman nayakap ang taong iyon. Maybe some of his suitors around love him so much because of his cuddliness. Sarap daw siyang gawing unan. Try to ask him kung totoo kasi hindi ko pa nasubukan. Haha. 

He’s a good manager, entrepreneur and great motivator. He’s like the big boss of every events in the city; manager of a well-known banking institution, a great entrepreneur of his own business (probably monkey business) and a loving uncle, friend and probably lover. That’s Sir Orman Manansala. If you don’t know him, well hindi ka taga GenSan.

I probably forced myself to do this blog post. Hahaha. Just kidding. This will be my last entry for the GESM Contest Week 7. Active nga ako sa Facebook, Plurk but not on the blogging side. Busy nga kayang maging estudyante. Thanks for the Portable Netbook, anywhere nagawa ko ‘tong piece na ‘to. Kahit sa lamay ng kaibigan ko, sa pagsakay ng tricycle, sa paggawa ng ES51 ng aking kaibigan, at during Prelim Exam ng Management 101 kanina. Multitasker ako. Kung kaya isipin, kayang gawin. And Sir Orman is a good example of that person. “Everything’s possible.”

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments , Happy Moments

Blogger's Opinion for 2010 Election: Hindi ka ba nakontento sa iyong posisyon sa Gobyerno?

"Campaign Ads for Gloria Arroyo"
Mukambibig ngayon ang pagtakbo ulit ni Pangulong Gloria Arroyo sa nalalapit na eleksyon sa 2010 pero hindi bilang Pangulo ulet ng bansa, kundi bilang Representante ng Pampanga.

For me, it's good to run again in politics to serve your people pero hindi pa ba siya nakontento sa pagiging pangulo niya at tatakbo ulet sa mababang pwesto? Marami ring nagsasabi that "she'll run for congress and after that uupo siya bilang House

Speaker sa mababang kapulungan then magkataon ding papalit ang System of Government sa bansa at siya ang uupo bilang Prime Minister, at diyan na papasok ang usaping CON-ASS."

We're responsible enough to choose the best candidate to serve the country. Sa nakaraang taon, karamihan sa populasyon ng bansa ay naghihirap. Kung SELFISH and CORRUPT ang pipiliin natin to seat down and serve our nation, eh malamang LALONG HIHIRAP ANG ATING BANSA.

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments