Searching for the perfect match?

I'm 20. Getting the borderline of loveless. Does it mean there's no perfect match for me?

I was thinking, I want to have a right girlfriend at the right time in the right place. That was 4 years ago. That 4-year duration of searching for the right girl was so difficult, I guess one of the toughest. If not, the hardest.

During that 4-year timeline, I was able to mingle with different girls. One there, she was a call center agent. She was active in night time. But how about day time? Always sleeping. I remember that I invited her to have movie date, but I guess when I called her, she was sleeping. 2 in the afternoon. Scourging hot outside. 32 degrees. But no one is answering the call. The worst thing she did was when I came to her office in IT Park and bought some snacks for her. It was 12 midnight. Mosquitoes bit me. Waiting for her break for like 3 hours. I kept on calling her phone, but sad to say she left her phone in the locker while she was having her work. After 3 hours, I left her food with a letter on it saying, "This would be the last. Thanks for loving and waiting me." I left the place at 4 in the morning. Worth waiting.

After few days, I didn't receive any calls from her, even a single text message. But I was expecting for that thing to come. I'm that kind of person that can easily forget those trouble times. And yes, for that short span of time, I forgot her.

After a month, I met this pretty awesome girl in school in her sophomore years. That was my first time I saw this pretty creature. I'm kinda good in stalking people, so I was able to know her background. She's studying Education major in Biology. Been to a lot of beauty pageants in their hometown, and also taking her courage to join major beauty pageants in the city. Yeah, I know, she's a good looking person. She was my inspiration for 3 months. Because of my strong connections with her closest friends, I was able to talk to her, heart to heart. Exchanging quotes and jokes over text messages, and even talking on phone for 3 hours per night.

We consider our relationship as "close friends". But because of our sudden closeness to each other, there are times that something is rumbling over my mind. I was getting paranoid when she joined in a modeling group. No texts, calls or even communication over Facebook. Her timeline is all about this modeling group. And there was a rumor that she was currently dating this tall and good looking guy from the group. Oh well, I guess that it girl is not for me.

Until now, I don't have any news from her. Well I guess she found her knight and shining armor. How sad she didn't pick me to be part of her love story.

While I'm desperate to find the perfect match of my love story, there is this simple girl, on her pony-tailed hair, with interesting mole in her upper lips. We're about of the same age, 20. She's funny, funny to be with. One talk and everyone will laugh that there's no tomorrow. But for her, it is a normal talk. She keeps on complaining that we made her a laughing stuff.

I met her in my working place. She came all the way from the mountains with copper and gold beneath. Her hometown seems to be an interesting place to live. There are lots of gold and minerals, just like her face. Shining like a diamond. I asked her frankly, "Why you're so beautiful?", then she answered, "because I am.", then everyone in the office laughed out loud because of the way she delivered the message. She is so funny, really. All-in-one, full package. It's like, I want to bring her home like a stuffed toy.

Now, I'm still searching for the right girl. I guess the mole girl will complete the criteria. But the question is, is she the right one? Will God continue to write my love story? Or someone else is waiting for my presence? Then the who?

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments

How to deal with Plastic People

This is an awkward blog post but since I'm some sort of emo today, I will make some naughty details on how to deal with plastic people.

Fake or plastic people are like everywhere. You can't really imagine that it might be your close friend, friend of friend, or perhaps your girlfriend/boyfriend. Having these people around will add spice on your life. These people (including myself as a plastic one) are having difficult time with their lives, or shall I say having a psychological problem. It is a mild situation where this person might having insecurities, backstabbing disease, or might perhaps having I-don't-know-what-happened-to-them virus. It's kinda viral to have these symptoms.

You can't easily identify plastic people, they are so brilliant in making false statements. Mas magaling pa silang manloko kaysa mga advertisements sa TV. They are considered as brilliant hypnotize-rs. You didn't notice their supernatural powers in backstabbing, kasi iba talaga sila kung magpasira ng tao.

Based on my experience, I got a mild condition where some of my friends are plastics, and I am also part of those group. I tend to make plastic sa kanila, at feel ko naman 'eh nagpapaplastik lang din sila. Sasabay nalang kaming lulutang kapag nasa tubig na kami. I feel so great kapag I backstabbed them with other friends. "Oy, si ganito ganyan, jusko! Napakaplastic (eh nagsalita din!)". Tulad nalang sa eksenang 'to, "Walang hiya talaga tong si ganito. Sinabi niya na ganyan ganito daw! P*nyeta!" ganito kapag nakatalikod. Kung nakaharap naman, "Hello, oy musta kana? Sus, antagal na nating hindi nagkita. Namiss kita tuloy. (Yuck!)" Napakaplastik naman 'tong mga taong ito. Tsk!

Paano mo malalaman na pinaplastik ka lang niya? Based on my experience, I got this horrifying answer when I fixed a date with his (the plastic one) trusted friend and treated him somewhere (e.g. McDonald's) para mag-usap-usap lang. After how many hours, he just spilled the bean. Ayun, nagpapakaplastik lang pala siya (the plastic one). Worth it naman ang ginastos kong pera para lang malaman na pinaplastikan lang niya ako. :))

How to avoid those loud and aggressive plastics? By not noticing them that they're exist. Been doing that until now. Others continue to have fake relationships or making plastics with other people. 'Yun din ang ayaw ko kasi nagpapakaplastic din ako. I have to avoid that condition para hindi ako masanay na maging plastic. I tend to ignore plastic people. Smile, don’t say anything and just walk away. This can be one of the hardest things to do sometimes, I’ve had several such experiences of my own, it wasn’t easy, but it can be done again with practice. The trick is to just “turn off”, cut the line, and not look back when you’ve made your decision (bad or good).

Be real. Be you. Well, practically that statement is too lame to understand. Everyone knows this rule. But sometimes, we are not real to ourselves. Because of insecurities with other people perhaps. Just be you. No matter who you are, or what you do in your life. We are created to be this way. As what Lady Gaga said, "I was born this way", so look at her now. A little drama drag queen.

Always tell the truth. When someone asked you, you should answer him/her honestly. Sometimes getting plastic disease started in this kind of situation. I don't know what would be the reason for this but we need to avoid telling lies.

Not to backbite with other people. You should control your mindset not to backbite any person, thing or animal. They have emotions that can kill you also. So beware of that mindset. Backbiting is like committing a crime, a murder to be exact. Stabbing the victim by using your words.

If you have a big, big, big and major problem regarding plastics, you need to consult a psychiatrist. :))

Plastics are those people having miserable lives. Well indeed, it is true. You’ll feel as if the whole world is out to “get you” each day, and you having to use your mask as a shield to deflect the crap that’s coming at you. Urgh! >.<

So good luck beating those ugly and pesky little plastics. Walang lugar sa mundo ang mga plastic na mga tao. :)

Emo Moments

Sendong (Washi) Aftermath with Photos

A viral photo spreading over the social networking sites touched my heart about the aftermath of Tropical Storm Sendong in Northern Mindanao. (Photo by annalyn.net)

The whole country mourns as the death toll rises to 1249 people (and still counting) and hundreds more are missing after Tropical Storm Sendong (International name Washi) ravaged Southern Philippines last December 16. It brought around 400mm of rainfall within 10 hours that caused heavy floods (around 10 meters high) in Cagayan de Oro, Iligan, Dumaguete, and some other parts of Southern Visayas and Northern Mindanao. It was unexpected catastrophe that brought Sendong as the world's worst typhoon disaster in 2011.

TS Washi (Sendong) in Mindanao Island. (Photo by Japan Typhoon Warning Center)

On the following day, a massive relief operation involving the evacuation of 100,000 people occurred. Approximately 20,000 soldiers were mobilized to assist in recovery efforts and evacuations. The Philippine Coast Guard was dispatched to search for missing people after villages were reported to have been swept out to sea. Sixty people were rescued off the coast of El Salvador, Misamis Oriental and another 120 in the waters near Opol township.

President Benigno Aquino III visited Cagayan de Oro and Iligan on December 20, 2011, and declared a state of national calamity in the affected provinces. The total cost of damages to agriculture and infrastructure is estimated at P999.9 million according to the National Disaster Risk Reduction and Management Council. The President also appealed to its citizens to help the victims in their way of celebrating Christmas in his Christmas Message.

Here are some snapshots of the aftermath (Photos by theatlantic.com):

Rescuers carry a girl to safety following a flash flood that inundated Cagayan de Oro city, Philippines, on Saturday, December 17, 2011. Tropical Storm Washi (Sendong) triggered flash floods in the southern Philippines, killing scores of people. (AP Photo/Erwin Mascarinas)

Aerial view shows logs swept away by flash floods caused by Tropical Storm Washi in the coastal areas of Iligan City, on December 19, 2011. Disaster agencies on Monday rushed to deliver body bags, food, water, and medicine to crowded evacuation centers in the southern Philippines as officials considered digging mass graves for hundreds killed in weekend flash floods. (Reuters/Richel Umel/Pool)

Dump trucks lie in mud on the compound of a three-story house damaged by flash floods brought by Tropical Storm Washi in Cala-Cala town in Cagayan De Oro City on December 18, 2011. Rescuers searched for more than 450 people still missing after flash floods and landslides swept houses into rivers and out to sea, killing more than 1,000 people in areas ill-prepared to cope with deadly storms. Cagayan de Oro and nearby Iligan cities on Mindanao island were worst hit when Tropical Storm Washi slammed ashore while people slept late on Friday and early Saturday, sending torrents of water and mud through villages and stripping mountainsides bare. (Reuters/Stringer)

A motorist speeds past a car hanging on a wall of a house, swept away at the height of the devastating floods in Iligan City, in southern island of Mindanao, on December 19, 2011, two days day after Tropical Storm Washi wrought havoc in the city. The Philippines prepared for mass burials of flood victims December 19 to minimize health risks from rotting cadavers after a cyclone disaster left hundreds dead or missing on Mindanao island. (TED ALJIBE/AFP/Getty Images)

Damaged vehicles washed away by flash floods brought forth by Tropical Storm Washi lie in a ditch in Balulang village in Cagayan de Oro, in southern Philippines December 17, 2011. Tropical Storm Washi, with winds gusting up to 90km/h (56 mph), hit the resource-rich island of Mindanao late Friday, bringing heavy rain that also grounded some domestic flights and left wide areas without power. (Reuters/Erik De Castro)

A village hit by flash flooding caused by Tropical Storm Washi in Cagayan de Oro in southern Philippines, on December 17, 2011. (Reuters/Erik De Castro)

A woman holds the dead body of her child who was killed during floods caused by Tropical Storm Washi at a village in Iligan City, on the southern Philippine island of Mindanao, on December 17, 2011. (Cherryl Vergeire/AFP/Getty Images)

Residents affected by Friday's flash flooding clean up their damaged homes in Iligan city, Philippines, on December 19, 2011. With funeral parlors overwhelmed, authorities in a flood-stricken southern Philippine city organized the first mass burial of unidentified victims who were swept to their deaths in one of the worst calamities to strike the region in decades. (AP Photo/Bullit Marquez)

People sit in a truck with coffins containing the bodies of Tropical Storm Washi victims for a mass burial in a cemetery in Iligan city, on December 20, 2011. (Reuters/Erik De Castro)

An aerial view shows damage caused by floods following Tropical Storm Washi in Iligan City, in the southern island of Mindanao, on December 19, 2011. (Reuters/Richel Umel/Pool)

Scattered overturned trucks near a village hit by flooding brought by Tropical Storm Washi in Cagayan de Oro, Philippines, on December 18, 2011. (Reuters/Erik De Castro)

Houses damaged by flash floods in a subdivision in Iligan city, Philippines, on December 19, 2011. (Reuters/Erik De Castro)

Soldiers carry the body of a child drowned by floods brought by Tropical Storm Washi in a village in Iligan city, Philippines, on December 19, 2011. (Reuters/Erik De Castro)

Philippine Navy personnel arrange coffins that will be shipped with drinking water, clothes and other relief goods to flood-stricken Cagayan De Oro and Iligan cities on board a Philippine Navy ship in Manila, Philippines, on December 20, 2011. (AP Photo/Aaron Favila)

Shanties damaged by flash floods brought by Tropical Storm Washi (Sendong) in Cagayan De Oro city, on December 18, 2011.(Reuters/Stringer)

Residents queue up for relief supplies at an evacuation center in Iligan city, on December 19, 2011. (AP Photo/Bullit Marquez)

Overseas humanitarian aid is pouring in for victims of tropical storm Sendong in the Philippines including China, United States, European Union, neighboring countries in South East Asia, Japan, Indonesia, United Nations Council, and among others.

Private organizations and citizens extended their relief efforts to the victims of tropical storm Sendong. Tons of relief goods (foods, clothing, bottled water) were distributed from different organizations and individuals. Shipping and courier companies offered free delivery of goods to Cagayan de Oro and Iligan from anywhere in the Philippines. Netizens also extended their help through donating money via PayPal and other online banking accounts. Giant TV networks held a nationwide telecom and massive media promotion to help the victims of tropical storm Sendong.

The victims of tropical storm Sendong still celebrated the Christmas in evacuation centers. DSWD packed noche buena items for the victims in order for them to celebrate the birth of Christ despite of the calamity happened.

Residents, covering their faces from the smell, watch as workers place unidentified corpses into apartment-style tombs at a pubic cemetery in Iligan City, on the southern Philippine island of Mindanao, on December 21, 2011. (Ted Aljibe/AFP/Getty Images)

Emo Moments , News

Valentine's Note

Valentines anywhere, valentines everywhere. Kahit sa FB valentines topic nila. Fave flower for valentines 'eh red roses, kung may kaya 'eh pink roses, parang 'yung sa patay na bulaklak with stand. LOL. Fave movie to watch on valentines 'eh ang walang kamatayang A Crazy Little Thing Called Love. A Thai movie about this ugly duckling turned into a beautiful princess just to get the attention of this hearthrob in school but after the long run, 'eh inlove din pala 'tong lalaking 'to sa bida. Parang unbelievable, unpredictable ang story with twists and turns. Fave resto na rin ata during valentines ang mga resto na nag-ooffer ng eat-all-you-can with serenade, banda at kaliwa't kanang freebies. Meron naman ding discounts sa mga hotels but I don't really get the point of having this discount rates 'eh bata pa ako, ba't ko gusto malaman kung bakit. Haha. Basta ako, I want to skip that Feb 14 date kasi wala akong ka date.

Kung gusto niyo ng tips galing sa akin, ok lang. Just read this post.

Tip from our Professor: Actually, I was not expecting that she will give this tip for us, sa mga may kadate. Sabi niya, H'wag mong dalhin ang iyong ka-date sa Fast Food. Hindi naman kayo nagmamadaling kumain. Dapat sa fine dining restaurant. Para mahaba-haba ang inyong usapan. Hindi pagkain ang habol niyo sa date, kundi ang mahabang oras ng inyong pagsasama. Sabi pa nga niya,

"Love flies out of the window when your stomach is empty."

Second tip. From Rabsky (ako), thou shall not bring her to a burger stand. That's rude. Mas lalong mabadtrip ang babae sa'yo. At lalong never mo siyang papagastusin. Treat her. :)

Third tip. Take her to the movie house, pero dapat love story ang panonoorin niyo para may sense, not an action movie or horror. Where's the sense of celebrating valentines?

Fouth tip. H'wag umastang parang mag-asawa kayo during date. Hindi pa nga kayo kasal. Take it simple and surely. Treat your girl like a princess not a wife. :)

Fifth. Kung makipagdate ka na man dahil sa pustahan ng kabarkada mo, then don't do it. That's rude. Karamihan sa mga dates ganyan ang cases. Hindi ba kayo naawa sa babae? Mokong.

Sixth. Bring camera to capture every moments. Then thou shall not post it on social networking sites. Just keep it to yourself. Mas dadami ang magseselos niyan kung ipo-post niyo sa internet. At baka gagawa pa yan sila ng gossip tungkol sa date niyo.

Seventh. Don't dare to post your location while dating. Baka susundan ka ng isa mo pang stalker at sirain ang date niyo. Di ba ang pangit?

Eight. Kung may balak man lang kayo makipagdate, magpagwapo naman kayo for good sake. Ayaw nilang mangamoy palengke ka. Special day 'yan, ano ba!

Ninth. Talking about presents. Wala namang kamatayang chocolates and flowers ang ipamimigay mo. Jusko, find another or better present for her. Something that she can relates on it. Malay niyo, ayaw niya ng chocolates or flowers.

Tenth. Kung may balak kayong magharana, then be sure na singer kayo o maganda ang boses niyo. Kasi pagtatawanan ka lang ng kadate mo kapag mas pangit pa sa kabayo ang boses mo! :)

Yan lang muna ang maibibigay kong tips. Kahit isa dito hindi ko pa natry. Haha. Kung meron man kayong idagdag, just leave a comment. Basta enjoy your Valentines. :)

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments , Happy Moments

I Met The Grim Reaper!

So weird to share this experience regarding the presence of so-called "kamatayan" or the Grim Reaper. Gumising kaagad ako and never go back to sleep baka matuluyan pa ako.

The thing happened when I dreamt about my cousin's finally bearing a child. Suddenly, the environment changed, it turned to black and (I think I'm half awaken) I saw, just in front of me, the Grim Reaper, wearing this black cloak but the weird thing, I can't see his face. Hindi ko siya kaagad tinignan at ang ginawa ko ay isang malaking bangungot ang nangyari.

After a minute, hindi pa rin ako makagising, and still he's looking at me (perhaps) and luckily, I escaped from his deep dark force inside my dream. I woke up thinking what was his purpose bakit nagpakita siya. I'm still curious. And why I can't see his face. Then I checked the time, 3:59am. I read this article online related to dark forces, stated "..if you can see the image of death (kamatayan) in your dreams around 3am, which is the devil hour, then perhaps he is up to something.." Little bit scared on my part. Due to this condition, I consulted Google and Wikipedia regarding the personification of death in my dream. Here are the results:

"To see the grim reaper in your dream, signifies the negative, rejected aspects of your personality. It represents aspects of yourself that you have repressed. Alternatively, it symbolizes death. The dream may parallel an end to some situation, habit, or relationship in your waking life." *(http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/characters.htm)

In conclusion, the only thing that I forgot during my nightmare was to call God for help. I don't know why I forgot Him to call. Perhaps that grim reaper controlled my mind. But still, I felt so guilty on why I didn't call Him. Second, think positive. Literally, I was thinking seeing myself inside the coffin due to my subconscious mind. After the nightmare, I woke up, with a small lurking disappointment, and full of thoughts and wonder. But still, I should learn to think positive. And lastly, pray always before and after sleeping. That is my weakness. I forgot to have communication with God before and after sleeping. and now I took it as a lesson-learned situation.

Awkward Moments , Emo Moments

Why I Blog?

I’m one of a million people who own a blog. Typically, a blog is a type of website that is usually arranged in chronological order from the most recent ‘post’ (or entry) at the top of the main page to the older entries towards the bottom. Others considered blog as an online diary of chronological posts. There are blogging niche. You can think of having a travel blog, if you are travel enthusiasts. Perhaps photoblog fits you for liking photography or consider place blogs if you want to promote your locality.

I started blogging when I was in 2nd year high school with http://zupistam16.blogspot.com as the url. I don’t have any idea why I came up with that blog. I made a sketch plan of the design but as usual, it was an epic fail. It was my hobby to make a blog, to create a website via HTML codes or using of CSS and Java codes. Because my life is so emotional, I created my own blog on April 2008, entitled akosiRabsky.blogspot.com. Perhaps this was an accidental product of being emoism (?) and internet addict.

I have three primary reasons why I blog. First, I blog for I influence others. Blogging is a form of a newspaper for example. You can have tons of millions of readers worldwide and through blogging, you can have the power to encourage others through sharing your ideas and knowledge to them. Second, I blog for my community. My community oftentimes called the dangerous place has the most number of felonies which are a false statement. Through blogging, I have the authority to change the perception of people through positive impacts. Just like GenSantos.com that keeps on promoting about General Santos. Positive News = Improvements = Tourism = Investments. Lastly, I blog for emotional exercise. It's like my shoutout box, I blog anything, everything about myself and others, about my emotions towards others, heartaches, school failures. I called this thing an emotional exercise to release my emotions through blogging. According to some research (which I googled), many of bloggers (perhaps including myself) improved their emotional skills towards other people, less stress on their part. Most of the bloggers started as an emo blogger! :P

This is an entry to a blogging contest sponsored by Life with Ria and WebSpark.net.

Emo Moments , Happy Moments

Wishlist before 2010 ends

Ang hirap talaga basta student blogger ka. You need to balance your schedules, your studies and commitments. Well as for me, I make all things not-so complicated. Minsan patuwa-tuwa ako sa room, akala ng mga classmates ko I'm darn crazy enough to attend school. Minsan nilalabas ang netbook during class at gumagawa ng blog posts. Ganyan ako ka-addict magblog. I considered it as a hobby. Just like playing basketball with friends or playing DOTA or Defense of the Ancients. But blogging has a big contribution in the netizen world. Problema ko ngayon, I can't even afford to buy a cheap point-and-shoot camera, just for my blogging activities. :(


I always keep in my mind that after a year, I should buy my own camera, not the damaged one. I owned this Canon camera which was quite good. Great output and it has 5 mega pixels, I think. But the problem is that, the lens of the camera won't go back if I'll turn it off. *toot toot*. I can't repair the damn camera because it costs around a brand new Nokia C3 (Php 5,000+). Bibili nalang ako ng bago pero wala namang pera. :(

That's why, I have this wishlist on my blog. I consider camera as an important thing for me, and I want it as a gift (kung merong magbigay 'jan) because in every major activities that we have, wala akong camerang gagamitin to capture every moments and to post it in here. It is really important as a blogger to have its own camera. I learned that even China Phones in the market can contribute to make your blog really interesting. (http://akosirabsky.blogspot.com/2009/12/photo-journalism-workshop-sox-bloggers.html) (Thanks to Ms. Jojie Alcantara for appreciating my piece of work). Ngayon ko lang din nabasa ang kanyang comment, for a long long time.

Rabsky,

I came in late in commenting. Very, very late.

But I want you to know I appreciate your thorough and detailed description of our activities.

I am also very happy that you've picked up a lot from my "fun lecture" and that you are brave enough to know that you can take beautiful images even with a china phone, once you set your mind to it.

Third, natuwa ako at naintriga kaya umabot ako sa part three mo dahil ako rin gusto kong malaman kung bakit ka nade-deja vu sa akin. Maliban sa ace choco biskwits, ikaw ba ay nanonood din ng tv show ko nung unang panahon, ang Halo Halo Sunday Special? :-)

Seriously, thank you for your honesty and refreshing views on life and blogging. I hope by now you are still pursuing your craft in photography.

Do not ever hesitate to contact me (via Facebook chuva and my sites) when something confuses you again.

Regards,

Ate Jojie Alcantara

Seriously, natouched ako dito. (Hindi literal). But somehow, I really want to be a professional photographer. Like the famous Jojie Alcantara, Leonard Pe, Apple Greatson Francisco, and among others. Pero may malaki pang panahon para 'jan. As long as I have this point-and-shoot camera, ok na ako 'jan. And as long as I shared every captured moments in cam and have posted it in my Facebook or in my blog. (Call me. Haha!)

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! :)
-Rabsky

Emo Moments , Happy Moments

One Thing in Common...

I've been in the blogging atmosphere for like 8 months. I met several bloggers of different races and faces but for sure, my blogger friends have one thing in common: That is, I'm very proud to say this but, they're so pretty! (Na-realize ko lang by looking at their photos in Facebook) Well except for male bloggers, of course. Ang ga-gwapo rin nila! No doubt. :)

It's fun to be a blogger. :)

Emo Moments , Happy Moments